Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Im not supposed to be here right now

I am supposed to be in Iceland, celebrating my birthday, which was yesterday.... HAPPY 25TH TO ME!! So why am I in East Brunswick, NJ? In Starbucks, trying to fight 500 other people for a table and some wifi bandwidth? UGH!! Oh well, its all good. Im just gonna make it work, I am moving to a house on the 15th of May in Byrd Park, with a guy who seems pretty cool. We will see! Also YES IM NOT CALLING YOU RIGHT NOW!!! Im a bit put off!!!

Saturday, April 17, 2010

Monday, April 12, 2010

a small piece of my head

how do i get them out of my head? (an appeal for advice!)

I have all these thoughts, images, pictures, dreams, and ideas in my head. I just don't know what to do with them!! How do I get it out? How do I bring it to people, to present it in a way that they will enjoy, notice, or appreciate at least? How do I portray them accurately, without losing my integrity, or the integrity of the intangible? I have run about with a camera for years, I doodle in a big journal, all of these are great, but I need other people to see what I am doing!! HOW DO I DO THIS!!Monster Children Magazine (Inside all of us is a monster child, Issue 24 2009)
I picked up an issue of Monster Children Magazine today at the bookstore, while I was in a desperate scurry to escape my mind. This magazine only made it worse. The people and work spotlighted in it, so closely represent what is in my mind, that instead of finding comfort in not being alone, i became anxious, knowing I am more alone!! I am the only one who can not accurately free my own head!!
Positive thoughts, happy notions, all that BS I have been choking on for the past months, All very effective, are still not releasing me, Only making me think more and more. My mind is become entirely too productive, and its like a dam on a river. I'm developing a thought lake. just the tiniest little stream of creativity, or production is pouring over.
I am about to take everything to a whole new level. I am going to achive a greatness never before seen. So much so, No one will even recognize it!!