Im not supposed to be here right now

I am supposed to be in Iceland, celebrating my birthday, which was yesterday.... HAPPY 25TH TO ME!! So why am I in East Brunswick, NJ? In Starbucks, trying to fight 500 other people for a table and some wifi bandwidth? UGH!! Oh well, its all good. Im just gonna make it work, I am moving to a house on the 15th of May in Byrd Park, with a guy who seems pretty cool. We will see! Also YES IM NOT CALLING YOU RIGHT NOW!!! Im a bit put off!!!

random thoughts

a small piece of my head

how do i get them out of my head? (an appeal for advice!)

I have all these thoughts, images, pictures, dreams, and ideas in my head. I just don't know what to do with them!! How do I get it out? How do I bring it to people, to present it in a way that they will enjoy, notice, or appreciate at least? How do I portray them accurately, without losing my integrity, or the integrity of the intangible? I have run about with a camera for years, I doodle in a big journal, all of these are great, but I need other people to see what I am doing!! HOW DO I DO THIS!!Monster Children Magazine (Inside all of us is a monster child, Issue 24 2009)
I picked up an issue of Monster Children Magazine today at the bookstore, while I was in a desperate scurry to escape my mind. This magazine only made it worse. The people and work spotlighted in it, so closely represent what is in my mind, that instead of finding comfort in not being alone, i became anxious, knowing I am more alone!! I am the only one who can not accurately free my own head!!
Positive thoughts, happy notions, all that BS I have been choking on for the past months, All very effective, are still not releasing me, Only making me think more and more. My mind is become entirely too productive, and its like a dam on a river. I'm developing a thought lake. just the tiniest little stream of creativity, or production is pouring over.
I am about to take everything to a whole new level. I am going to achive a greatness never before seen. So much so, No one will even recognize it!!

wednesday night recap

This week has been up and down. My former employer seems to think they are justified in not paying complete slaries even when they had no work for salaried employees, so I have begun a war against them. This sucks because I really valued that job, and the people. on the other hand, the new job seems great, and I have met a lot of new people who seem like they could really be great people to be around. I'm only going to look at the bright side these days, and remember that good can only come from the good things you chose to take from your day. I have broken my life goals into yearly, monthly, and daily goals, which so far I have been meeting. I'm on the right track, and in doing so, will have many wonderful stories to share.

how effective is this thing?

whats important in a blog? direction is of ccourse important. i have changed mine about 800 times. i am now going in the direction of personaly updating. really i suppose readership is important. how do you capture tons and tons of readers? i will be writing with the updates in my life. career goals, reading, successes, and overall happiness. i have found that just writing for myself is what ultimately satisfies me!

changing lives

I'm sitting in Unstoppable Force Tattoo, here in Richmond, Reading the Happiness Project on my kindle, and watching my brother ge his first tattoo. It hit me that in the last week, and really since I have been reading this book, I have really applied Gretchen's (the author) experiences to my own life! I have loved my most recent job, but was losing way too much time with all of the travel. While i was in town I got down to some serious work, risking rejection, and braving the job market. I found a new job here in town. A slight pay cut, but with it comes opportunity. A chance to do what i want to do. Next week I will be persuing my real estate liscence. Yes, in this economy, why the hell not? I have been one of the most successful people in my peer group in this painful economy, why not try it? Its not like I have anything to lose! The time has also given me the chance to dust off my camera and really get back into my photography. I am not looking to make money off of it, but I do need to get into my hobbies. I have been looking for a room mate and have found a house in Byrd Park, which I am very hopeful will pan out. I will try to post my progress more and more as we go. I am so excited and confident that these changes will all be in the right direction!

20 wings? are you serious?

can i eat all that with fries and gravy too?

wow, you guys are really ugly....

So I went out tonight. Nothing new for anyone who knows me. The only thing different was that I was at home, in richmond. Tonight I remembered... again, why this is where I keep coming home to. I'm not sure that it matters much wjere I live concidering my job is to travel. Living it up rocl-star style is how I make my living. Of course I would love to live somewhere like new york or boston. Expenses would be cheaper, as I would be using larger airports as my home base. But still, when the week is done, and its time to come home, Richmond, VA is where I go. So naturally I started out at Capital Ale House here in Midlothian, but some how the night moved to The Republic, downtown. This is a bar I had never been to, but post-smoking ban, its one of the few bars in town that still allows cigarettes. They feature kareoke, which as a rule, I avoid, but somehow they make it work. We drank so so so much. In an effort to not be ordinary I was frantically googl`ing what to drink in the form of a shot. I stumbled across a drink called the Moscow Mule which is simply vodka, ginger ale, and lime juice, and after tweeking it a few times we found our own blend and rename it the Moscpw Moose. 1:45 rolled around, and in typical VA fashion, it was last call, and the lights were on in the rudesf of sorts. Some broad we were talking to and taking shots with decided that would be her chance to say "You guys are really ugly!" First of all, that's my line. Second, bitch give me some money for them damned shots I included you in on. And c. Is it the alcohol, or the crappy lighting that makes people seem less hideous in a bar? None the less, she was right. Her little remark did, however, land her with a larger tab than mine, and I left. Having had a wonderful time, I wound up in my bed, tired, drunk, needing to be at work in a few hours, and contemplating the bar lighting vs. Beer goggles effect on who you assossiate with at a bar... cause baby, you weren't so cute yourself`

really?

Who the hell ever knew, I've been a lot of places, nearly everywhere as is evidenced by my map on facebook. but its these small towns all over america that have the most fun. Who has ever seen the hotel bar bumping lil wayne, so packed with people you can't even move? Its the only place in town so of course everyone is there! I really lovethese places! I'm all about the city, I really am but small town america really has it. Goin on!